Tuesday, January 6, 2009

Crisis

Okay all you mommies out there- I need some serious counseling. I'm having a total meltdown!! Yesterday I put Mason down for a nap and after about 15 minutes I had a feeling I should go check on him. This is what I found....

Okay- first of all he just barely started crawling a month ago. He's never pulled himself up to stand before so I was in absolute SHOCK!! He thought it was hilarious. He was laughing and gooing because he finally got to chew on the stuffed snail he's been staring up at for the last 9 months. Maybe I'm just emotional or something but when I saw him standing in his crib it totally hit me that my baby is gone forever. He is growing into a boy faster than I can believe. Tonight I gave him his bottle and then bawled my eyes out over how big he is. I just can't help feeling like I didn't cuddle/snuggle/hold him enough and now I can't ever get his tiny baby days back.
Here's me post-breakdown. See, he's HUGE!

9 comments:

Shandra said...

He totally is huge! He's way cute though. And don't worry, it's normal to have that breakdown, and pretty normal to have it right when you see them stand up for the first time. It's like all of a sudden they're all grown up (at least in comparison!) and you're so sad to see it go. On the bright side, as soon as they start walking, you don't have to break your back quite so much carrying the kid everywhere! That's very exciting!

Erik and Lisa Harper said...

I totally just had about the same breakdown. Kaden is now about two and a half and on sunday we moved him out of his crib and into a big boy bed. Ever since I had kids I have never taken down my crib cause there has always been a baby in it. It is heartbreaking not to have my nursery anymore, so I completely understand the meltdown. Just writing about it makes me tear up. You just hang in there you are entering into some of the cutest phases that you will just cherish. Oh and I would probably lower Masons mattress, we dont want that precious baby falling out.

Corie said...

Wow... your little guy is growing up fast! I'm glad to know I'm not the only one having breakdowns. I had a good cry on Jonah's one month birthday because I thought he was getting to big! Pathetic, I know. The way I see it, they were literally a part of us for the nine months they spent in the belly. How can you let something like that go? But don't worry, Summ... no matter what, he'll always be a part of you and he'll always be your little boy.

Brittany said...

IT REALLY IS THE HARDEST THING TO SEE YOUR LITTLE BABIES GROW UP. I CRIED AFTER I HAD MCKELLE FOR A LONG TIME CAUSE I THOUGHT SHE WOULD BE 18 AND LEAvING ME SOON. THAT IS WHY WE HAVE MORE KIDS. I THINK YOU APPRECIATE EACH ONE MORE AND MORE CAUSE YOU KNOW IT GOES BY SOO FAST. THEY DO GET FUNNER WITH AGE THOUGH BECAUSE THEY CAN PLAY WITH YOU AND THEY SHOW THEIR PERSONALITIES A LOT MORE.

Sheena Cody and Taylor said...

Sum,
ok you know me I'll just give it to you strait. If you are having a meltdown over how fast he is growing up now the next 17 years are going to kill you. You need to embrace that your little miracle is growing into such a wonderful intelligent boy/man. I think all first mother's go through that meltdown and that was the best advice I ever received!!
I know how sensitive of a person you are so start preparing your self now for that moment he takes his first step and says his first words cause those made me cry. Everyday I miss my little Taylor, but I absolutely love my big girl!!
P.S. he is such a big guy, looks like he is half of you already.

Brooke said...

They do grow way to fast!!!He is adorable. I would LOVE to have everyone caome down- I LOVE party's!!! So let's do it soon!

steveandjonelle said...

They grow up so fast. I can hardly believe it! What a fun little guy.

Parker or Jessica said...

What a big boy! I love the pics :)

weston'smommy said...

I know how you feel. When Weston turned one I was like my baby is gone forever. I knew I was going to stop breastfeeding at a year and he was starting to walk. It is defiantly hard. But I gurantee you you held him, hugged him and loved him enough. And you will get to keep doing that even as he gets older. You are in for the really fun stuff. From a year on has been the best with Weston. Better then baby years I think.